stop defending your ego

My boss was a little mad at me …

Previously I ever visited a satsang. I did not know what that was, a satsang something like  is a gathering , a place where people talk about Enlightenment, Consciousness, Awareness, you can ask questions to a teacher, usually a teacher of the Advaita Vedanta.  Every satsang (gathering) is different. Yes, I've read about it and I adopted its definitions for knowledge.

However, I am not someone who likes to delve into ancient traditions such as Advaita Vedanta. I prefer to immerse myself in myself, who I really am, regardless of any tradition. To investigate myself , I first have to believe in my existence, otherwise there is nothing to delve into me. So my first point is: I exist and I experience.

And now, I take you directly to my experience today was summoned. I don’t know why, but somehow I already felt I got into trouble with my boss this day.

Of course I had many good reasons to defend myself, to explain myself. But ... it does not matter to me. As I sat there at his office I thought to myself, "It looks like as if I wrote this script myself. What the fuck is going on…  The whole game should be played, and I join and have  fun  with it. "

This is what I am experiencing: I see myself sitting there and there are all kinds of feelings going through me: irritability, anxiety, fatigue, anger, sadness. These are the meanings I give to all these kind of signals I felt.  But there is something else: and that is Presence. Awareness of a fake game where everyone plays his role and that role should be played anyway. What the hell. There is one very important thing that I've learned and I will tell you here:

I once had a colleague with whom I ran a class for a year. A popular, likable and attractive man. What he did was very simple when he was criticized. He always said to the others: “You are right.”